The consent submitted will only be used for data processing originating from this website. Authentic. But then I thought What if I gave my soul to Satan I dont want that. Don't get me wrong I'm not trying to use the old excuse "The devil made me do it" but I believe that he has power to try to cause us to go astray. When they brutally murdered the Jews during the holocaust, many were acting in accordance with their values and beliefs. Steven, the Wonderful thing about God is that our words & thoughts may offend Him but they do not make our break Him. I was reading your description of the OCD escalation cycle, and could really identify with parts of it. I have a video that talks about this exact thingI encourage you to look through the videos! In Christian hamartiology, eternal sin, the unforgivable sin, unpardonable sin, or ultimate sin is the sin which will not be forgiven by God.One eternal or unforgivable sin (blasphemy against the Holy Spirit), also known as the sin unto death, is specified in several passages of the Synoptic Gospels, including Mark 3:28-29, Matthew 12:31-32, and Luke 12:10, as well as other New Testament . Because He sees the real you. I just feel so strange right now. The thoughts are against the Holy Spirit . Sometimes it is orderliness. I am sure there can be elements of spiritual warfare involved, as in many of the other problems of life, but OCD is not demonic possession, it is a scientifically studied phenomenon of the human brain, which can sometimes interfere with the way we experience our faith and spirituality. May our Lord Jesus help us in this fight. Right now my appointments are all booked out, but hopefully Ill have some open soon. So, in context, blaspheme against the Holy Spirit is discrediting miracles, especially exorcisms of evil spirits. Please is it a case of SCRUPULOSITY? If its your OCD, again, ask God for help. This book will teach you how to put the pieces together so you can live a victorious Christian life and finally become the man or woman of God that you truly desire to be. Many people have the idea that blasphemy is the act of using a curse word against God or resisting the Holy Spirit to some kind of vague point of no return.. I think having people in my life who relate to this torture is in of itself helpful. Ive been really numb not just with this but with everything in my life. I find a mistake on everything I do, constantly forgetting the Master's love for me and I blame myself over it and sometimes It takes days before I eventually forgive myself. That's true no matter what crazy thoughts run through your head. I still fight them in hopes someday they'll disappear but they don't. Any suggestions ? The Lord bless you !! The more I try to become closer to God and unite myself to Christ the more these blasphemous thoughts would come into my mind. The Bible promises that if we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness (1 John 1:9). What youre experiencing is something called magical thinking in the world of OCD. People with scrupulosity tend to see the world in severely black and white terms. Eventually, we will build up a higher tolerance for these uncomfortable thoughts and they will bother us less. It has helped my anxiety and OCD SO, SO MUCH. Your so-called "blasphemous thoughts" are questions or doubts about your faith community's doctrines, Your thoughts are criticisms of the way your faith community operates or treats people, Your thoughts are related to logic or "making sense", Your blasphemous thoughts are bizarre, repetitive, and illogical, Your thoughts are not a direct question or criticism of any part of the spiritual experience but feel more like "attacks" against God, You have a history of being an overly-positive super-Christian, You typically hold back or stuff down your emotions, particularly in your relationship with God, You find yourself going through very difficult times and are struggling to maintain your emotional faade, You already have a balanced relationship with God that includes the ability to voice your feelings, Your thoughts against God are illogical and unrelated to any past traumas or present challenges in your life, Projection of self as God or thoughts of receiving worship, Inappropriate sexual thoughts about God or other religious figures, Having an abusive thought against God MEANS you believe that thought, Thinking something sacrilegious MEANS you are apostate or damned, Getting random thoughts that you might be praying to yourself MEANS you are prideful and believe you are God, Repeating verses a certain number of times, Ruminating on the event to try to figure out if your blasphemous thought was genuine, Seeking reassurance from a religious leader that you are not damned and have not committed the unpardonable sin, Giving in charity, making personal sacrifices, or making pacts with God, His own people, that is, those who knew Jesus, His life, and the works He had done claimed He was out of His mind.. I cried my eyes out in his car. God knows these thoughts are not coming from you! Thank you for describing your struggle Im sure there are dozens of other readers who would resonate completely with your story. We do try to earn our salvation. About the OCD I feel like it doesn't even make sense. It was so bad, I ran away from God. We arent saying that Chemosh isnt real. Before you continue reading, it will be important to have your blasphemous thoughts results in mind as you read this guide. Hope you will be okay. I always responded to the blasphemous thoughts and the cycle repeats. He read a verse about gluttony, so he began skipping one meal per day. After that, he read about self-control, and he cut down to eating only a scanty amount of food each day a piece of fruit, a few nuts. Hope something will work out for you. I have talked to dozens and dozens of others who express the exact same concerns. When a person does not know Jesus as Savior the primary work of the Holy Spirit in that persons heart is to convict them of sin and point them to Christ with the hopes of them turning to Christ for salvation. These thoughts would come during sincere prayer and hinder them. Do not look for an overwhelming feeling of joy, just believe that God heard you. There are a few verses we can use to understand this phenomenon and help you reduce your fears. The lies of the enemy came to the surface and God showed me how really saw Him and how I built my life around lies. I don't know why it happened but it got worse and worse. The repetitive nature of intrusive thoughts mean theyll keep coming back again and again. But opting out of some of these cookies may affect your browsing experience. I struggle everyday with suicidal thoughts. I think that the evidence clearly points to Christianity, and the other religions or atheism are not attractive to me. Though they can appear to be similar, there is a difference between taking the Lords name in vain and blasphemy of the Holy Spirit. I feel like I am blinded or something. After a really long time in this environment, she will begin to have periods of depersonalization, where she feels emotionally numb, disconnected from her personality, and may have out-of-body experiences. You have given me hope. 5:37-38]. in fact, I already think I've checked out mentally. This started for me when I was about 19 or 20 years of age. I ended up freaking out and was sent to the psych ward in handcuffs. I keep speaking the name of Jesus each time they popped up. Yes, there are different methods ERP, Biblical imaging, direct mockery but above and beyond these methods we must remember that God is kindly and compassionately uniting with us in our efforts to get better. I love God and believe in Jesus and have given my life to him many years ago. Even though people who take the Lords name in vain often do so willingly, it is usually born out of their ignorance. They are things Ive previously confessed and Told Jesus Christ about it. Everyday, wake up and choose that This Day, I'm going to serve God/Jesus, and just focus on that daynot yesterday or tomorrow. I wish you Gods richest blessings on your journey. He felt like God did not love Him anymore and that they would be separated forever, but this was not the case. Hi Jamie, a little about me: I'm 19 years old and on the autistic spectrum. You ask the question about how you can be sure the thoughts arent from you. It might feel like youre betraying God, your beliefs, and the people you love. Being tempted does not mean we have sinned. I have a much harder time believing saying it out loud is forgivable rather than just the thought. I pray for you to know that God is not mad at you, He wants you to trust Him to take it all. This post is a blessing and it encourages me to keep going. I can't believe how accurate you are on how I feel. Keep your hands in your pockets, keep your mouth closed, and wait for falsehood to fall to the floor of its own accord. Am I lost forever? But its the only way forward. I believe my OCD stems from fearful teaching and biblical beliefs. Here are a few observations from the context: Think about other stories of unbelief. And I think about Him and His goodness and perfection, and it calms me down. In Jude 1:22, it says on some have compassionbut others save with fear. Different people are drawn by different means. Thank you, so much for the understanding. Let me explain why you dont have to worry about this. This passage simply wasnt meant for them. I have OCD as a child used to do rituals to calm them. I too need to talk to others in groups like this cause it is scary!! There was no denying the power of God was on display. Well just this week I have been doing fantastic. Just recently I was prayed over at church and this last week my mind is clearer than it has been in along time. For us, its an anxiety disorder that gets mixed up in our walk with God. "Good and upright is the Lord: therefore will He teach sinners in the way.". Habitually Exalts Jesus (1 John 4:1-2) 3. Doubting is so much a part of OCD that it has been called the doubting disease. In fact, theres a book specifically about scrupulosity that is titled The Doubting Disease, but you might pick up more obsessions by reading through it and hearing about what other people obsess over. And if you get bored of one, itll morph into a different form to make sure it maintains your attention. I skimmed the article and was appreciative of its content, as this is something I wrestle with daily. This summarizes the four main characteristics of intrusive thoughts: they are Repetitive, Unwanted, Meaningful, and Powerful (RUMP). Im sure they will support you and be your biggest cheerleading team! Don't let your feelings guide you but your faith. My efforts to stay away from God did take away the horrible thoughts. Which is really bad. I dont have your entire story and background, but some parts of your comment bothered me. Even if the worst case scenario is true? Anxiety is like part of me. "OCD" is often used as an adjective for people who like to keep things clean and tidy. I need more advice from you please, this article was so helpful I need more please! I had a hard time believing in or contacting God. Thanks for writing. What do you think? All fear fell from me. You are sealed. I know it was a mistake, but I also know that You still love me. You see that I cant fix this in my own strength. Try going into a vision or picture in your mind the second you know the thought is coming. Without Faith (not feelings) it's impossible to please God Hebrews 11:6. I asked the Holy Spirit to renew my mind and give me peace and I believe I have been healed and released from this. The Bible tells us that all we have to have is faith of a mustard seed (Matthew 17:20), not a watermelon seed which is bigger.